Sunday, January 1, 2017

Goodbye 2016.. Hello 2017 !

*perhatian : Post ini mula ditaip pada hari Sabtu 12:05am.. Tetapi atas hal2 tertentu, baru skrg (Ahad 12:30am) aku mampu officially post-kannya dalam blog. Maaf di atas segala kesulitan*





wow... 2016 sudah berada di penghujungnye.
tak sangka kan....
hhhmm.. cepat sungguh masa berlalu... :')

okay, right now..
i'm just typing all this in a notepad.
later i'll just copy and paste it in my blog. hehe
now its already 12.05am.. (saturday, 31 Dicember 2016)
and its around 2.35am in Malaysia...

ok.. me and my Coorg friends just had a potluck
(sorry not sure spelling betul ke tak. hihi)
and lepas makan2, kitaorg tgok movie..

aku dh lupe tajuk movie tu..
but its about a guy who is finding the meaning
of happiness...

lpas tgok movie tu,
tetibe rase emo semacam.
mcm2 perasaan sdg bermain dlm jiwa..

itu yg tetibe nk tulis post ni.. hihi
i thought of doing a post.
about happiness..
specifically,
about 'my' definition of happiness..
maybe one day i'll do a post about that.

right now.
i just wanna throwback a bit..
about all things that had happen
during 2016...... :')

before i start,
just wanna luahkan kesyukuran..
alhamdulilah,
sbb zaman aku skrg ada telefon yg canggih2..
boleh amik gambar, capture moments..

haha.. sbb aku nk throwback ni pun,
aku kena tngok gallery phone aku tauu..
if not,
aku mmg takkan igt sgt..
tentang apa yg berlaku sepanjang tahun.. hihi

to be honest,
sejak tahun 2014,
or to be specific,
sejak aku dh habis skolah,
setiap tahun mcm tak jelas sgt..

yelah, contohnye if start skolah,
baru start tingkatan 3,
mase tu 2011..
so the whole 2011 is all about my form 3 life.
about school, friends...

naik 2012 pulak,
everything is about life in
tingkatan 4... mcm tu lah kirenye..

but since masuk kolej,
everything is mixed up man...

contohnye aku start medic dkat India ni
bulan 10 2015....
bulan 10 tu kejap je...
pastu dh masuk 2016...
and then masa new year tu kitaorg ada kelas.
tak cuti pun tau..
and then its like in the middle of the semester.

aku tak tahu nk terang mcm mane.
but i hope you get what i'm trying to explain.
its like, masuk tahun baru.
tapi tak rase pun mcm tu,
sbb tak selaras dgn semester kolej aku.

thats why i feel a bit lost..
sejak masuk kolej ni.

ok. sorry.
terpanjang pulak muqqadimah...
nevermind, walau apa pun,
setiap tahun akan membawa
pelbagai kenangan suka dan duka kan ?

dah, jom naik mesin masa,
kita throwback kejap.....

p/s : i'll write about the stories of that month,
and then i'll just insert some random
pictures during that month okay ?




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JANUARY

aku tak brape nk ingat,
ape bde penting yg berlaku..
mcm aku ckp,
bile masuk tahun baru,
aku tak rase ape2 pun sbnrnye..
tapi...
aku baru teringat sesuatu...
cinta... ye... aku terjatuh cinta..
pada orang yg salah...
yess.. aku ingat...
bulan january lah aku dan dia mulai
mencintai antara satu sama lain..
sungguh indah skali segala kenangan tersebut..
namun... aku tahu... inya tidak akan kekal lama.
tekaan ku tepat skali.


 2016 new year's eve dinner with ThivyaShini

 spending some time with cousin, Rawan..
trying my best to get to know with her more closer. :)

me, Farah and Ain going for Lagenda Night 2016

January 2016.. It's the begining of the year..
please be good to me.. ^_^
*hhmm.. tulah.. acah2 pkai spek sgt..
skrg mata aku dh start rabun betul tauu.. :'(










FEBRUARY

bulan kegemaranku..
bcoz of valentine's day ?
nope... bcoz its my birthday month !
but seriously,
aku lupe bufday aku kot.. haha.
i was so busy...
smpai tak igt bday sendiri...
and idk why.. i just dont want
anybody to know my birthday...
i hide all my birthdate in FB, twitter, Ig..
and another sad thing that happen during my birthday,,
yes.. i still remember this.
i went to the hospital..
to check.. for my neck swelling.
and guess what...
yup.. on my birthday, i found out
that i'm having a tumor.....
20 y/o on 20th february.
the date was really nice.
but it was the sadest birthday of my life..
hari demi hari..
aku menanti bulan March.. bulan ketika
kitaorg ada sem break for 1 month...
i was planing NOT to go back to Malaysia
during that holiday...but
becoz of my tumor,
i had to go back to Malaysia..
my family was really worried..
and i need to get rid of it a.s.a.p
anyways, i tried to live my life to the fullest.
although i was a bit sad about my health condition.
about that guy that i had fell in love with,,
yes.. i really appreciated every moments with him..
coz i know,
after i go back to Malaysia,
and come back to India again,
everything will changed.. i know.
and i'm thankful... bcoz aku betul2
hargai dan merasai segala moment indah tersebut..
and yes... goodbye.........




 crazy night full of free foods
 with my uncle and Farah at Valley View hotel..
pecah masuk kolej lainpunye event woii.. hehehe.
thanks to my uncle ! :-P

 spending time with a senior..
and now all the nice kakak2 seniors have gone back to Malaysia.. :')


 pre birthday celebration dinner date with Ijmal..
she is also a February baby <3






MARCH

basically, i guess this is the biggest event
that had happen for me in 2016..
yup.. ini lah highlight dia..
my carotid body surgery...
i will not talk much about this.
cause i've already posted the stories..
but anyway,
yes... although its a dark memory,
but i find it sweet actually...
its the best thing that ever happened in my life.
aku bukannye nk mintak bde buruk cam tu berlaku.
nauzubillah...
but aku just bersyukur sbb alhamdulillah
aku mampu hadapi smua tu..
and bukan semua org dpat rasa
apa yg aku lalui..
satu pengalaman yg sgt scary and istimewa.. :')
byk hikmah yg aku telah perolehi
drpd segala yg telah berlaku...
alhamdulillah.....


 buying sarees with Ain at Udupi..
mase ni kitaorg ade 2 or 3 days before nk balik Malaysia..


 selfie at the roof of my grandma's house.
tak silap aku, ni masa first time Ain dtg umah nenek aku.


 hello Malaysia.. Didnt expect to see you this early.
anyways, the moments when i reached Malaysia was so precious. :')
pls read the post : Kisah aku sebagai pesakit to know more. hehe


 my favourite picture.... :')


 March 2016 is all about hospitals, medicines, blood











APRIL



a new start after my surgery..
somehow, i just felt that
i was given a second chance to live..
i almost died.. anything could have happen to me.
but alhamdulillah, thanks Allah,
sbb masih beri aku peluang utk hidup..
tapi.. kali ni aku berasa sgt lain.
yes.. aku rase aku kurang upaya..
byk bde yg aku dh takleh buat...
aku dah tak sama mcm dulu..
aku tak kuat.. aku sgt lemah skrg..
sangat lemah..... :'(
sikit2 sakit...
buat kerja sikit sakit...
smua benda tak kena dgn kehidupanku..
hampir tiap malam aku menangis..
memikirkan kehidupanku yg dulu.
namun aku segera beristighfar..
kerana aku tahu,
aku tidak seharusnye complain sebegini...
terima lah... terima lah segala yg telah berlaku.
aku psrah... aku mula redho...
wait... your love story .
what had happen ??
as i said... i know its gonna end...
and yup... it was...
that was the last goodbye.
now everything has changed.
it was really awkward at first..
but... i tried my best to be friends with him again.
coz i dont want any kebencian, atau kemarahan
melekat dalam hati.....
tapi. ini soal hati..
bukan boleh main2.... :(



 My mom had to come with me to India..
i just had my surgery, how am i suppost to go back alone :(


 My tablemate Kristine..
thanks for being with me ketika susah dan senang..
at this moment aku mmg slalu sakit2 dlm kelas.. :(


 2016 is the year when i got closer with her, Syahirah..
never thought that she'll be one of my close friend.. :P



MAY

forgot to mention.
i started to learn cooking during April.
tapi betul2 serious ketika bulan May.
mcm2 resipi aku try...
alhamdulillah... i'm happy that i'm actually cooking.
yes... 2016 is the year where i started to cook real food.
how about my health ?
i'm starting to accept my self...
its a bit hard...
but yeah....
kisah cinta monyetku ?
alhamdulilah, dah tak awkward sangat.
me and him are now friends...
sometimes,
jantungku berhenti berdegup ketika bersamanya.
aku tak tahu tentang apa yg dia rasa..
tapi, aku ketepikan smua itu..
kerana hatiku telah berpunya...
iya... hatiku berada di Malaysia..
aku tidak boleh memberi hati ini
kepada orang yg baru ku kenali tak smpai satu bulan.
maaf.... maaf atas segalanya..
tapi, terima kasih atas segala kenangan manis bersama.



yes.. i did a crazy experiment with a friend.
wearing purdah and jalan2 for the whole day.
it was a nice experience.
but.. sejujurnye.. aku mmg belum bersedia nk pkai purdah.. :(







JUNE

musim hujan telah tiba...
aku paling tak suka musim hujan..
sbb ianya buat aku trauma..
teringat kenangan banjir teruk 2013 di Kemaman dulu..
alhamdulilah, di India tak banjir..
but still... i hate rainy season.
asyik basah je woiii... aduii..
and yeah,
pada bulan june jugak lah,
start bulan puasa...
our first Ramadhan in India...
how was it ?
hhmm.. azam nk kurus..
tapi makin gemuk ade lah.. haish...
astarghfirullah.. apa ni Sab..
mane boleh niat puasa sbb nk kurus.. ish3..
about ramadhan in Manipal,
actually i'm suppost to write that in a post,
all about my life here in India..
but yeah... seru belum smpai lagi utk tulis
post tersebut.. maaf ye.. one day inshaa Allah


 Pinjam violin Ain..
nak acah2 jap... hehehe


 yes... i broke a new record..
me and Ain drove the auto... yup..
aku pun tak percaya...
thanks to my auto friend, Jaypee
for giving us the chance ! 


 liqa mahabah for juniors batch 38..
yes, Hanisah and Aina dah datang India !
but sorry, they are not in this pic


 yeay.. Hanisah, Aina.. and 2 more new malay friends,
Dania and Aisyah.. they're our juniors, batch 38..
masa ni kitaorg berbuka puasa sama2.. ^_^


Musim hujannnnnn



July

apa yg meng-highlightkan july is raya..
yup.. itu je yg dpat aku fikirkan..
raya in manipal... it was not that bad..
it was nice actually.. bcoz of food !
yes... lots and lots of Malaysian food !
tak rase pun mcm dkat India masa tu..
yg sedihnye,
family jelah yg takde di sisi..
ala, biase lah raya di perantauan.. huhu
sabar lah... this is life... right ?
and sbnarnye bulan June and July ni agak mencabar for me.
masa ni block 4.. and yes i hated that block so much.
sbb aku ade mcm2 masalah emosi.
nope, its not about the cinta monyet that i was talking about.
its about friendship. and my jiwa yg bercelaru.
so yeah... i just hate those moments..



 Pagi raya, i went to my grandma's house..
seriously, raya kat rumah dia tak rase mcm raya langsung..
haha.. maklum lah, tradisi diaorg lain skit..
tak sama mcm malaysia..
anyways, alhamdulillah ... 


 i started to learn how to use public transport. alone


 majlis hari raya for all malay students of MMMC




AUGUST

debaran semakin terasa..
why ? bcoz my first university exam is approaching...
yup.. university exam ni basically mcm SPM lah..
smua subjek, smua topics for 1 whole year,
akan ditanya dlm exam... it was the final-est exam..
(omg.. final-est ? seriously Sab... -_- )
so yeah, most of the days in august is actually
during my study break (1 month) for Unis Exam..
nothing much..
just mereput dlm bilik lama2..
and tgok movies.. and baca novels..
and last minute baru nak menggelepor.. haha



 last dissection class ^_^


 apabila terlalu boring dalam bilik,
jom kluar makan street food !


 just saw them perform near the auto stand.
so just thought of taking selfies with 'em
they look creepy tho


yes.. i broke a record.. i drive a car in INDIA ! 
wohoooo. i cant believe this. but this is true okay.
how did i got the car ? how did i drive ?
erm.. its a long story...
sorry... i'm lazy to describe more... hihi








SEPTEMBER


bulan di  mana perasaan ku bercampur baur.
takut sbb exam Unis telah tiba..
happy sbb tak lama lagi aku akan habis 1st year ! (kalau lulus)
and happy jugak sbb dah nak balik Malaysia !!
but wait... i forgot to mention something.
about my tumor..
you what.. around July or August,
aku dpat merasakan bahawa
ketumbuhan dkat leher aku mcm tumbuh balik.
yup..it looks like as if it re-grow again.
i can feel it.. aku raba2 leher aku and dpat merasakannye.
and during September lah,
aku pergi check skali lagi with the doctor
time aku balik Malaysia...
dah lah balik Malaysia dlm keadaan berdebar and takut.. :(
pastu balik2 je, terus pergi hospital utk check..
aku takut sgt... aku tak nak operate lagi weiii. >.<
but you know what... suprisingly, the dr said,
takde ape pun... i'm fine...
then i just went back home...
i was a bit shock.. bcoz i thought i'll be facing
surgeries again... anyway, aku bersyukur sgt2..
sbb skrg aku rase lega...
aku boleh enjoy holiday aku kat Malaysia
tanpa fikir banyak .
tapi... di sebalik kegembiraan tersebut,
ada jugak kesedihan....
my father... he has some heart problem.
he's going for CABG (bypass heart surgery)
pada akhir bulan September....
i was really sad and affraid.... :(
oh another thing that happened during september..
i went Australia with my friend Ain !
it was a really amazing experience.
i'm so thankful of all that :')
but yeah, betul2 lpas aku touchdown from australia,
aku terus pergi hospital melawat ayah aku..
coz the next day, was his surgery...


yeayy... going back to Malaysiaaaaa

 
 me and bro at the airport.. masa ni nak hantar aku pergi australia


 me, Jayson and Ain tepi tasik..
tgh picnic and bbq-ing :D


 Hospital Ampang putri..
tempat membawa seribu perasaan..
dan tempat bersejarah for me and my dad






OCTOBER


i think this is one of the best month
of year 2016... i love it.. why ?
of course bcoz i'm at home... and its holiday !
tapi... cuti kali ni agak lain skit.
dia tak happy sepenuhnye...
coz most of the days at home,
i was just with my brother..
my mom is in the hospital,
jaga ayah aku...
yup, alhamdulillah operation telah berjaya..
and my dad and mom duk hospital for
more than 1 week...
so that whole period,
i was enjoying being alone in the house ! hihi..
and i love those days sebab,
aku drive tiap2 hari !
both manual (kereta wira) and
auto (toyota fortuner)..
and yes... this is crazy....
aku tak pernah pun drive everyday mcm ni.
the best part is, aku drive sensorang woi !
and yes, yg paling sukar dipercayai,
aku drive kereta ayah aku yg bapak besarrr tu !
as you should know,
my dad will NEVER allow me to drive his big car.
and he'll NEVER let me drive alone anywhere.
at least my mom or my bro should be with me.
but hey, its an emergency situation.
my dad and mom dkat KL..
sape nk hantar adik aku pergi skolah ?
sape nk beli makanan ?
aku ada lesen kan... so ape salahnye.. hihi
and those moments were one of the best moments in my life.
sbb bukan senang aku nk drive.
and i actually improved my driving skills.
alhamdulillah....
then when they came back home,
aku dh takleh drive dah.. hhmm :(
nmpk tak di situ ?
setiap perkara ade happy dan ade sedih.
sedih sbb parents takde di rumah.
but happy coz boleh drive hari2 and sesuka hati :P
happy bile parents dah balik rumah.
tapi sedih sbb dh takleh drive. hurm..
anyways, this is life..
ade ups and downs.. kan ? ^_^
and yes, in the end of October,
i must go back to India...
and alhamdulillah,
i've passed my 1st year of MBBS...
so now, i'm continueing with my 2nd year.
oh and this month,
i went to Bangalore. just me and a friend.
2 of us.. and ini lah kali pertama
aku jenjalan dkat india (with a friend) selama 3 hari 2 mlm.
it was a very nice experience.. :)


 i miss you so much, baby


 holiday means : Food and moviessss


 met my friend, Farah during the holiday ^_^


 lepak with my father's clinic staf... hehee


 its time to go back to India !
oh wait... you know what happened ?
idk why, but suddenly MAS change my seat to 'business classs' seat man !
omg... i was the happiest person on that day !
it was an amazing experience !
bukan senang woi nk msuk business class..
lain lah kalau kau kaya... hhmm


 my tablemates for block 1 second year..


 hey, juniors batch 39 and BDS batch 8 just came !


be and Trish (junior b38) at Bangalore




NOVEMBER


1st november me and a bunch of Coorg trip friends,
kitaorg pergi Karkala...
and ini lah kali pertama aku jenjalan
dgn kawan yg ramai2 cam ni...
memang,
aku tak suka bile ramai2...
tapi ntah lah... diaorg ni mcm not bad jugak sbnrnye.. :)
ok what else on November ?
to be honest aku tak ingat sangat ape yg berlaku
during this phase..
i just remembered that it was block 1..
my cinta monyet story pulak mmg dh terkubur..
nothing much about me and him..
and oh yeah, forget to mention,
the new juniors are here.. batch 39..
and kali ni byk gile melayu woi..
haha... so did i made any friends ?
yup... i did.. but not much lah..
malas... ala, mcm tak tahu je yg aku ni anti sosial.
apa yg aku ingat,
november berlalu sangatlah pantas !



 my fav pic of the trip to Karkala <3


 me and Nadia.. a selfie before we did our
"speech with champions" for batch 38
it was a truly amazing experience.
i was really thankful to be chosen as one of the 'champions' :-P
panjang critenye.. tapi maaflah, takde masa nk crite.. hehe


 Liqa mahabah for batch 39 studentss


 i love book fest ! aku beli 4 buah novel masa ni.. hehe


 spending time with cousin ^_^


 we're all wearin' blues..... hehe






DICEMBER

wow.. its Disember already...
how time flies right ?
every Disember aku mesti akan rase emo semacam.
haha... tak tau knape.. maybe bcoz its the end of the year.
anything special during Disember?
block 2 classes just started.
and my seat ? belakang skali weii.. :(
but alhamdulillah, from no where, a girl from the 1st bench,
mintak tukar tempat with me :')
alhamdulillah, now i'm sitting in front..
tapi... mcm tak selesa lah pulak.
got another prob.
but i wont talk about it here....
the highlight of Disember is,
my trip to Coorg...
although it was a bit screwed up,
tapi orang2 dlm trip tu lah yg memberi kenangan manis..
yes... after that trip,
kitaorg buat potluck pulak...
just 8 of us (sorang lagi xdpt join)
and malam ni pulak (31st Disember 2016)
inshaa Allah we're going to a hotel
to have a new year's eve dinner... ^_^
so yeah... spending time with these bunch of friends
yang mengakhiri 2016 ku....
haha.. serious tak sangka..
bcoz aku kan anti sosial..
tak sangka jadi cam ni...
but walauapapun,
aku tetap akan berhati-hati
and tidak terlalu rapat dgn sesiapa. dont worry. :)



a small family gathering at my grandma's house ^_^


 my fav pic of the trip to Coorg ^_^


our small potluck and movie night ! :D




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dear 2016...
thanks for everything...
walaupun byk bde pahit yg ku lalui,
tapi smua tu membuatkan aku menjadi
semakin matang... alhamdulillah.

yes.. aku baru sedar..
2016 byk mengubahku actually..
pemikiran aku dh berubah..
and aku lebih berdikari.. hihi

aku dh blajar cam mane nk gune
pengangkutan awam..
belajar cam mane nk uruskan hal bank..
belajar beli barang online XD
haha.. pls jgn gelak.
ini bde serious.
and bagi aku ini satu achievement utk aku

and yang paling penting,
aku dh belajar masak..
and yeah, of course its not the end yet..
belajar kan proses berterusan.. hihi
will still keep learning inshaa Allah.. :-P

tapi...
2016 bagi aku rabun..
yes.. aku dh start rabun skrg.. :'(
and bukan tu je,
i have some prob with my left ear.
its half deaf. or maybe some prob
with my ear drum... :(
and also the scar... of my neck surgery.
and my back pain..
2016 gave me that all.. :'(

bukan tu je,
azam utk kuruskan badan pun tak tercapai.
hhhmmm...
tak byk berubah dlm hal tu.

but takpelah..
alhamdulillah for everything..
setiap yg berlaku pasti ade
hikmahnye kan ? ^_^

alamak... my karangan dh tak de
suara mcm puitis dah... aduii..

okay again..

dear 2016...
thanks for all the memories .
the bitter... the sour...
and especially the sweet one.
thanks...
kau tak seteruk seperti yang aku sangka..
byk jugak yg telah kau berikan padaku.
goodbye.... segala kenangan bersama mu
akan kukenang selamanya... ^_^

hello 2017...
i'm so nervous to meet you..
i dont know why...
semoga tahun 2017 lebih baik drpd tahun2 yang lalu..
inshaa Allah.......... 


p/s : actually i have a lot more pics and stories to share... but i cant.. masa dan keadaan tidak mengizinkan skrg ni... i'll try my best to do it in another post okay. inshaa Allah, kalau aku rajin... hehe... bye2 happy new year 2017 people !! :D